KC Davis: How to do laundry when you're depressed

Recorded atAugust 06, 2022
EventTEDxMileHigh
Duration (min:sec)12:57
Video TypeTEDx Talk
Words per minute174.74 medium
Readability (FK)65.04 very easy
SpeakerKC Davis
Occupationwriter, psychotherapist, lecturer

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Synopsis

Ever had a hard time doing daily household tasks -- cooking, cleaning, laundry -- and felt like a terrible person for struggling in the first place? Therapist KC Davis is here to flip that negative internalized script with a simple yet perspective-shifting fact that may change your approach to life. Learn a gentler, more practical approach to mental health as Davis shares hard-won wisdom and helpful shortcuts on how to get by when you feel like you've barely got it together.

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100:03 Shortly after I published my book,
200:05 I got an email.
300:06 It said,
400:07 "Your book was the only thing that saved me from suicide.
500:11 You saved my life."
600:13 Now, for a book about how to clean, that's sort of odd, yeah?
700:16 (Laughter)
800:18 But what if a new approach to cleaning
900:20 could teach us a better approach to treating mental health?
1000:24 I'm not an interior designer or a lifestyle influencer.
1100:28 I'm just a therapist with ADHD.
1200:30 And in February of 2020, I had my second baby.
1300:33 Because with the first one, I had some postpartum anxiety
1400:36 and my husband had just taken a very demanding job
1500:39 that was going to keep him busy,
1600:41 I developed a meticulous postpartum plan for myself.
1700:45 My family would rotate in in shifts for the first 60 days.
1800:48 The cleaning crew would come once a month.
1900:50 The new moms group would drop off dinners.
2000:53 And my toddler would go to preschool.
2100:55 I was so proud of this plan,
2200:58 and it ended before it even began.
2301:02 Because 2020 is when the COVID lockdowns happened
2401:05 and all of that support disappeared overnight.
2501:08 In a blur, my days turned into breastfeeding difficulties,
2601:12 toddler meltdowns and depression.
2701:15 The dishes stayed in the sink for days.
2801:17 The laundry pile reached impressive heights.
2901:20 And there was often not a path to walk from room to room.
3001:24 And when I should have been catching up on sleep,
3101:27 I would lay in bed at night and think to myself,
3201:29 "I'm failing.
3301:32 Maybe I'm not capable of being a good mom to two kids."
3401:38 I decided to post a joke video on TikTok one day
3501:41 about my house-turned-disaster.
3601:43 (Laughter)
3701:46 Some funny shots of my clutter and my dishes
3801:49 and my enchilada pan to a nice beat.
3901:53 Sort of a laugh to keep from cry situation, surely.
4001:57 And I got a comment.
4102:01 "Lazy."
4202:04 Yeah, that stung.
4302:07 But I must be a glutton for punishment
4402:09 because I kept posting videos about my messy house.
4502:12 (Laughter)
4602:13 Video after video of all of the weird tips and tricks that I was using
4702:17 to try and get it back in order
4802:19 while managing my feelings of being overwhelmed.
4902:21 And I braced myself for more criticism.
5002:25 But what happened was entirely different.
5102:28 In the comment sections of my videos,
5202:30 hundreds of stories came rolling in.
5302:34 Stories like Amanda,
5402:36 who, after losing her baby in the second trimester,
5502:38 was standing frozen at her sink
5602:40 because she forgot how to wash dishes.
5702:44 Stories like Lula,
5802:45 whose chronic health problems and depression
5902:47 made it difficult for her to brush her teeth.
6002:49 Story after story of people with depression, ADHD,
6102:54 autism, burnout, bereavement,
6202:56 all struggling with these daily tasks.
6302:59 And it might seem odd to some of you
6403:01 that someone could struggle with tasks that are so simple.
6503:05 But are they simple?
6603:08 Let's think about what really goes into something like laundry.
6703:11 Everyone picture your laundry pile right now, OK?
6803:15 How many clean clothes do you have left right now?
6903:18 Can you wash tomorrow, or must it be today?
7003:20 Do you need to prioritize, presort pre-treat anything?
7103:23 Did you grow up with anybody that taught you how to do that?
7203:26 You're out of laundry detergent,
7303:27 if you work three jobs, when are you going to get to the store next?
7403:31 If you get there, can you afford it?
7503:32 And if you can, which one you choose?
7603:34 And you get it all home, get in there,
7703:36 Now pick a setting. Which one? I don't know. Google it.
7803:39 By the way, you have memory problems,
7903:40 so you'll remember that wash in about three days,
8003:43 when it's mildewed into the washer.
8103:44 It's OK, just re-wash it, and get it into the dryer.
8203:47 You'll forget that too, and it'll wrinkle. Now dry it again.
8303:50 Now all you have to do is get it out and fold it.
8403:52 But also you have three small children.
8503:54 And those three small children haven't given you a moment alone
8603:57 in quite some time.
8703:58 When you finally get that moment, you have to decide,
8804:01 are you going to finish the laundry or eat a sandwich or take a nap?
8904:04 Time's up, you didn't do any of it, you stared at the wall.
9004:07 You have decision fatigue
9104:08 because the burden of carrying a home all by yourself has burnt you out.
9204:12 You see, for some of you, all of the steps and the skills
9304:15 that go into care tasks run on autopilot.
9404:19 But for millions of people, the autopilot is broken.
9504:25 And what's worse, what if you had to do all of that when your mom just died
9604:29 or your job just fired you
9704:31 or you’re using every ounce of strength that you have
9804:34 to just not kill yourself today?
9904:39 If you have access to therapy,
10004:40 it's unlikely your therapist will ever ask you about your laundry.
10104:45 I've worked in mental health for about a decade.
10204:47 I've been in therapy even longer,
10304:49 and the only time I ever had a provider talk to me
10404:52 about things like cooking and cleaning and brushing my teeth
10504:55 was when I was in a psych hospital as a teenager.
10604:58 Yet here were hundreds of thousands of people
10705:02 in my comment sections telling me
10805:05 that these daily care tasks were a major pain point in their life.
10905:10 And so I started to wonder, what if we started here?
11005:17 What if we started with these care tasks?
11105:21 Could making daily tasks easier improve mental health quicker?
11205:27 In the two years that I've been posting and writing
11305:29 about the intersection of mental health and care tasks,
11405:32 I've come up with a philosophy that does just this.
11505:35 And it all starts with one simple idea.
11605:38 Cooking, cleaning, laundry,
11705:42 it doesn't make you a good person.
11805:45 Or a bad person.
11905:48 Listen to me.
12005:50 Care tasks are morally neutral.
12105:57 Now, I know that if you've been watching Martha Stewart for decades --
12206:00 (Laughter)
12306:02 and scrolling the perfect Pinterest aesthetic every day,
12406:06 that it can feel like struggling with these tasks is a moral failure.
12506:10 Like, it's because we're lazy
12606:12 or irresponsible or we're immature.
12706:15 But having an organized closet doesn't make you a success.
12806:18 And living out of a pile of laundry on the floor doesn't make you a failure.
12906:22 You know where the shirt you want to wear is, it just ...
13006:25 (Laughter)
13106:28 It might take you a bit of sifting to find it.
13206:30 (Laughter)
13306:32 The truth is, it's not about morality.
13406:35 It's about functionality.
13506:38 Does your home work for you?
13606:41 Not some hypothetical houseguest that is coming to inspect your closet.
13706:45 (Laughter)
13806:48 I mentioned Amanda, who had lost her baby
13906:50 and forgot how to wash dishes.
14006:52 She told me that when her husband would go to work,
14106:55 she would lay on the floor next to the empty crib
14206:57 and say to herself,
14306:59 "What can I bring to my family if I can't even wash dishes?"
14407:04 But that changed
14507:05 when she began to see care tasks as morally neutral.
14607:09 All of the sudden, the dishes in the sink
14707:11 weren't representations of her failure as a wife,
14807:15 but instead she would look at the pile
14907:18 and think to herself, "What do I need to function tomorrow morning?"
15007:22 And then pull two coffee cups out of the pile to wash.
15107:27 She had her coffee the next morning,
15207:29 and it was a little bit easier to get up off the floor.
15307:33 When we liberate ourselves from the idea that we are a good person or a bad person
15407:37 with care tasks,
15507:38 we can stop thinking about the right way to do things.
15607:41 About the way that things should be done,
15707:43 and instead start thinking about what we can do
15807:46 with our current barriers
15907:49 to improve our quality of life today.
16007:52 And this is the fun part.
16107:54 Because you get to customize a life that works for you.
16207:58 When Lula realized that her problems with brushing her teeth
16308:01 were not moral failings,
16408:03 she gained the confidence to speak to her dental hygienist,
16508:06 and together they came up with solutions that work around her barriers.
16608:11 She now relies on pre-pasted disposable toothbrushes
16708:14 that she keeps in her desk,
16808:16 floss she keeps in the living room
16908:18 and a no-rinse prescription toothpaste.
17008:20 Because by breaking down the component parts of a dental hygiene routine
17108:25 and ensuring that each step was accessible to her mental and physical needs,
17208:30 for the first time in a year, she's done every step in that routine
17308:33 for two weeks straight.
17408:36 She says that now that her teeth are clean,
17508:38 she's a little less stressed about tomorrow's problems.
17608:43 And this approach can work with any care task
17708:45 that you struggle with.
17808:47 Simply ask yourself,
17908:48 "What am I trying to achieve
18008:49 and how can I achieve it in my way?"
18108:54 In a rare moment of folding clothes ...
18208:57 (Laughter)
18309:00 I looked down at the baby onesie that I was folding,
18409:02 and I thought to myself,
18509:05 "Why am I folding this?"
18609:06 (Laughter)
18709:11 Baby onesies don't really wrinkle.
18809:13 (Laughter)
18909:14 And even if they did, nobody cares if a baby's in a wrinkly onesie.
19009:17 (Laughter)
19109:19 Furthermore, I was probably going to change her
19209:21 four times before lunch.
19309:23 (Laughter)
19409:25 This doesn't need to be folded.
19509:27 I said it out loud
19609:29 and literally braced myself
19709:31 for the laundry police?
19809:35 I don't know.
19909:36 There are rules to laundry.
20009:39 But for the first time,
20109:41 I stopped thinking about the way that laundry should be done.
20209:44 And instead, started thinking
20309:45 about how I could make laundry functional for me.
20409:49 And I looked down at the fleece pajamas
20509:51 and the underwear and the athletic shorts
20609:53 and the tank tops
20709:54 and realized almost none of my clothes actually needed to be folded.
20809:59 And I haven't folded any of it since.
20910:01 (Cheers and applause)
21010:09 I moved all of my family's clothes into one closet off the laundry room,
21110:13 and now I just toss things into organized bins unfolded.
21210:19 (Cheers and applause)
21310:23 My new motto is: “Good enough is perfect.”
21410:26 (Laughter and applause)
21510:31 And everything worth doing is worth doing half-assed.
21610:34 (Laughter and applause)
21710:40 You have to give yourself permission to do a little.
21810:44 To do it with shortcuts.
21910:46 To do it while breaking all of the rules.
22010:49 And replace that inner voice that says,
22110:52 “I’m failing,”
22210:54 with one that says, "I'm having a hard time right now.
22310:58 And people who are having a hard time deserve compassion."
22411:03 If it's too hard to shower today,
22511:06 grab the baby wipes.
22611:08 It may not be the normal way to do it,
22711:10 but you deserve to be clean.
22811:14 If it's too hard to cook dinner,
22911:17 get paper plates,
23011:19 heat up something frozen.
23111:20 You’ll go back to cooking and washing another day,
23211:23 but the day is not today.
23311:24 And in the meantime,
23411:26 you deserve to eat.
23511:29 If you're too depressed to do your dishes,
23611:31 get a two-gallon Ziploc bag and keep it in your bedroom.
23711:34 Because if you put a dirty plate into a two-gallon Ziploc bag and seal it,
23811:38 it will keep the bugs away.
23911:43 And it'll be there for you
24011:45 when you're ready to go back to the kitchen.
24111:48 Because you deserve a sanitary environment
24211:51 even if you can't get out of bed.
24311:55 I could share with you hundreds of other genius solutions
24411:58 that people have come up with
24511:59 once they embraced the idea that care tasks are morally neutral.
24612:03 In my experience, people will exhibit mind-blowing creativity
24712:08 when they are only taught
24812:09 how to speak compassionately to themselves.
24912:14 So what if mental health treatment started here?
25012:18 By shifting the idea of care tasks
25112:21 as these external measurements of your worthiness
25212:24 to just being morally-neutral tasks
25312:27 that you can customize to care for yourself.
25412:33 Because if it's true
25512:36 that regardless of what you struggle with,
25612:39 you are worthy of a functional space,
25712:44 what else might you be worthy of?
25812:48 Thank you.
25912:49 (Applause and cheers)
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